*yIyuAnRyan*

Y Thursday, April 30, 2009

this photo make me laugh..alike?

lights off,i feel like overnight there n sleep...

my work...

my job has been extended again to end of may...My pass expired le..next monday onwards i have to use visitor pass le so troublesome but it's ok.Gaining experience is more important rather than staying at home like joel, he's still job hunting....i rather go food hunting>.D

yiyuan
9:28 PM

Y Monday, April 27, 2009

When u are at ur lowest pt of ur life, friends and family is there to guide u..their every advice is like a puzzle,i think i roughly get the full picture le...i just cant be a coward and run away..i have to face the world.Yesterday night,i chat with my one of my aunt,i get what she was trying to say.for grandma-though u nv chat with me but when i see u standing beside grandpa picture,i get what u are trying to convey.I did wat i feel i need to do,though im hurt todae,but i accept whatever comes my way.i face it bravely.My journey is indeed tough from now..
jaime,joel,soonguan,chiafong,eunice,beeyean,aunt,grandpa,grandma,dad,mum,weiquan,anson tan(sec),anson(poly),jintong,henry,chenlong,zhang kang,thanks for being there for me when im down..thanks for ur concern and advices.with all these i roughly get the whole picture le.

whatever outcome it is ,i accept it and pay for my mistakes.Leave everything to fate(now -2years).,at least i try....
chiafong and eunice thanks for forgiving me.everything is ok le..cya ok:D

yiyuan
6:28 PM

Y Friday, April 24, 2009

well i just gotten my enlistment letter...i'm going in at oct6 where as my buddy soonguan at oct 7...wooo same school also..but different company,we are praying we wont kanna ninja company...

Henry-9 july
weiquan-13june
joel-14sept

yiyuan
9:59 PM

Y Thursday, April 23, 2009

慌乱城市中连风都不自由热闹的街头就属我最寂寞是爱的蛊惑让我又兴起贪求的念头有多爱我够不够久会不会走藏在柔顺背后你忠於自我情爱里游走从不曾见你低头我却常犯错像一个太忙太累太傻的陀螺转个不休只放不收停不了手太想爱你是我压抑不了的念头想要全面占领你的喜怒哀愁你已征服了我却还不属於我叫我如何不去猜测你在想什麽太想爱你是我压抑不了的折磨能否请你不要不要选择闪躲只想爱你的我太想爱你的我难道只能在迷雾中猜你的轮廓藏在柔顺背后你忠於自我情爱里游走从不曾见你低头我却常犯错像一个太忙太累太傻的陀螺转个不休只放不收停不了手太想爱你是我压抑不了的念头想要全面占领你的喜怒哀愁你已征服了我却还不属於我叫我如何不去猜测你在想什麽太想爱你是我压抑不了的折磨能否请你不要不要选择闪躲只想爱你的我太想爱你的我难道只能在迷雾中猜你的轮廓太想爱你是我压抑不了的念头想要全面占领你的喜怒哀愁你已征服了我却还不属於我叫我如何不去猜测你在想什麽太想爱你是我压抑不了的折磨能否请你不要不要选择闪躲只想爱你的我太想爱你的我难道只能在迷雾中猜你的轮廓

old song yet a classic song....i donno y i go search for it..lol..nice song..:D

yiyuan
10:12 PM

todae when im working,i recall the times at alumin night with joel,beeyean and chiafong and my fellow poly friends...It was one of the happiest night i had....sitting down the stairs taking pictures and chatting...

yiyuan
6:48 PM

Y Tuesday, April 21, 2009

这些年一个人风也过雨也走有过泪有过错还记得坚持甚麽真爱过才会懂会寂寞会回首终有梦终有你在心中朋友一生一起走那些日子不再有一句话一辈子一生情一杯酒朋友不曾孤单过一声朋友你会懂还有伤还有痛还要走还有我这些年一个人风也过雨也走有过泪有过错还记得坚持甚麽真爱过才会懂会寂寞会回首终有梦终有你在心中朋友一生一起走那些日子不再有一句话一辈子一生情一杯酒朋友不曾孤单过一声朋友你会懂还有伤还有痛还要走还有我朋友一生一起走那些日子不再有一句话一辈子一生情一杯酒朋友不曾孤单过一声朋友你会懂还有伤还有痛还要走还有我朋友一生一起走那些日子不再有一句话一辈子一生情一杯酒朋友不曾孤单过一声朋友你会懂还有伤还有痛还要走还有我一句话一辈子一生情一杯酒

2012 the world might be going to end....

yiyuan
9:40 PM

Y Saturday, April 18, 2009

Stunning..i watched over it like 50 times le...so touching and stunning...Don't judge people by it's cover....When she started singing touch by heart...this is one of the song i will cry when i emo..

Stunning performance...pursue ur dreams susan

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high,
And life worth living I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving...nothing more can i say!

yiyuan
9:08 AM

Y Thursday, April 16, 2009

todae after work, i boarded my dad's bus to my primary school to help out in taking care of the students...when i reached the court, my aunt was there and didnt notice me until 6min...then she shocked that i was there...HAHA~then she told me she thought i was a teacher..Mr Lim..who is Mr Lim???New teacher?maybe cos i wear formal ba>.< the students who board the bus also thought im a teacher...got advantage then they will be guai..LOL...

while i was walking home,sec sch memories came back,the path i took is when i took together with soonguan,henry n chen loong during secondary school days when we saving transport fee..LOL..can we wear sch uniform n walk home again?things wont be the same again ba...It's just a happy memories..

To beeyean,eunice and chiafong> friends forever! dont blame urself,im to blame not u ya..smile..

After chatting with eunice in msn,i found out that im still a soft hearted person.To cf,bee and eunice give me some times ok?I try for the sake of our friendships.

yiyuan
9:18 PM

Y Wednesday, April 15, 2009

First of all,i want joel to be there for him when i need someone to talk to...im shocked when u came to my house to find me...thanks really,u are a precious friend to me.Yesterday i promise my grandpa that i will stand up again and i will do it for him..dono y i miss my grandpa so much.I wonder y so much things has happen? from a small things compile to a big situation....it's all started like this.... one day when i was studying in my room,cf suddenly sms me asking whether i have feeling for her,actually i dont wan to answer her as i dont want any1 to know until im very sure abt it but cos she's my friend and i trust her and i answer her. In the end,it was not cf who sms...it's someone else...andso it spreaded..and things become worse and worse till Mr tan and her know abt it.I was angry when i found out that they betray my trust...Actually i was in a wrong,i shouldnt have answer,i can only blame myself. After all these things have happened,it's beyong my control and led me to confusion..and i guess i have made the wrong choice due to my confusion ba.what happen has happened.I stay firm with my decision to start the relationship with her after my ns but due to the not in the right state mind,i start a relationship with yeeling.i should not have done that.i should stick to my decision so these things wont happened n also getting bad to worse.After i start relationship with yeeling,yeeling keep mentioning abt the girl,im tired,these things always link to her and also eueu said i two timer.DO u think i want it???who started the spread first?If they didnt spread all these things would not have happened, i will not be confused,i wouldnot consult yeeling, everything would not have happened.

the old yiyuan>> soft hearted
>>say sorry for the sake of saving a friendship
>>dont trust pple
>>easily feel guilty
>>thought that Beeyean understand me the most but she dont.
>>treasure friendship

changes in yiyuan>>i will not be soft hearted anymore
>> i wont say sorry for the sake of saving a friendship
>> i dont trust pple more than ever.
>> i will feel guilty still
>> i treasure friendship for those pple whom i trusted.

Conclusion: No1 understand me but i will continue to stand up cos grandpa is there...For chiafong and eueu,we are still friends even all this has happened but i know the friendship wont be the same again. There's the new yiyuan u are seeing now not the old yiyuan that both of u have known.
I thought beeyean should know that im not the 2 timer guy..but she say donno.donno i take it as yes i am...things would not be the same again...

yiyuan
8:22 PM

Y Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I dont expect anyone to pity me or feel sorry for me...It's my retribution.Once it has happened,no matter how i amend it,it will never be the same again..just like a broken glasses....
Alot of things i want to say out loud,i wan a listening ears..but those who wan to lend there,i dare not say....
some of her friends like joanna blame me for hurting her...ya..they were right to hate me..i deserve it. nothing can change the fact that i hurt her.I'm guilty
I thought of staying firm with my decision..in the end,i dont bear to lose such a good friend and i change my mind. Whenever i see u,im guilty and recall the past,i want to make sure history wont repeat itself again so i made that decision.cos i can sense it's coming through ur care and concern.Please dont care for me again especially u...I'm here to say sorry...

Can i stand up again???No matter how hard i have tried,i still fail...im tired and sick....
I dont deserve any1 care and concern.....
I'm bastard.....
suffering from depression.....

yiyuan
8:11 PM

Y Friday, April 10, 2009

todae (9-4-09) is the day we separate..the relationship has last for 2mths and 16 days.if u ask me again,i'm not regretted to choose her as my gf in the first place.It's not that we quarrel or something,we nv quarrel before...but sometimes things are beyond out control...i cant control,so is she....but we are still friends....

thanks for ur love, care and concern for me..
wish u find a better bf .....

yiyuan
12:16 AM